I feel as though something profound is literally just about to shoot out of my vagina and straight into the Earth. I feel pregnant and ready to release a huge growth inside of me. I am ready to heal from what has been held onto. Ready to see and release that which I thought I needed in order to survive.
I have held so tightly onto trauma, thinking perhaps I needed it so that I would remember the lesson. In holding on, I have put that memory in the dark closet of my womb and not allowed it to breathe fresh air. I have not seen this trauma for the lesson that all of it has given me. I have held onto it because I thought I NEEDED it, and forgotten to use it for it's purpose. HEALING. Healing. This trauma, this pain, this sense of lack of love, this sexual "abuse", all of the floating outside of my body. It was all depp purpose. Deep learning. Deep growth.
It's time to see it for what it was. To SEE it. To HEAL it. To RELEASE it. To go on.
My body is crying for escape. It is showing me the signs. It is writhing and burning for my soul to push this forward, for my conscious mind to take charge, and for my heart to heal.
This learning is my truth. It is my offering. It is my glow. Not my darkness. It is my light.